This morning I have been thinking about what words rhyme with Mondays which describe that day better but nothing sounds adequate or witty. Because I am tired. I feel like I am a mess. My life needs structure and I am the only one who can give that to it.
The downstairs needs to be cleaned, dishes which are not meant for the dish washer need to be washed, new laundry needs to be cleaned, my fingernails are horrible (I was able to polish them red for New Years Eve!), the new army green pants which I bought just before Christmas are now too big and got grease stains on them even though I thought I had wiped them away right after it happened and washed them. Ruined.
Mikael left for work and I miss him. We need to go on a date. I want to see Life of Pi.
I was called to be the 1st councelor in the Relief Society and I am kind of happy about it. I like teaching and organizing.
Last weekend I suddenly re-arranged our bedroom and now Matilda has her own corner (we don't want to put her in her own room yet, picture to come) and I am able to get in and out of bed the normal way again without having to crawl to the end of the bed as Matildas crib is right next to me. But I think that she notices the change as it has been tough for her to fall asleep and she woke up every 2-3 hours last night. She just wants to be held and fall asleep in my arms. I let her do that once but I am too afraid that she will get used to that again and I will need to sleep train all over again so I pick her up until she stopped crying and put her down again over and over again. As this is what "The Baby Whisperer" recommends and it works..
I want to post every day. I have so many things to tell, document about Matildas life, how much she is growing and how happy she is, but I feel I am lacking my mojo at the moment. I just need to get it back!
You know the pins on Pinterest where a mothers life is all structured into cleaning in 15 minutes every day? On Mondays you do this, on Tuesdays, etc. THAT is what I have to do. Structure my days. Matildas are already with set times to sleep, etc. Babies strive on that they say. So do grown ups, right?
I wrote on Facebook the other day that my goal for 2013 is to "wear more lipstick". It's true. But now I am setting a new goal, to structure up my life.
Once that is done, I'll set more. And now my mom calls. She knows when somethings going on.